There is an extensive list of murder ballads involving stories of women being murdered horrifically because, for one reason or another, the man who courted her went absolutely crazy. Some of these stories beg for pity, or claim to be innocent, or ask to still be sent to heaven. As a music project with a friend we decided to create our own murder ballad involving a woman doing the same, noting how it seems much more terrifying or upsetting (and not “appealing” like most murder ballads) because it’s a woman who committed the crime. Here is the sorrowful tale of Timothy Payne:
When I first met my beautiful love
I knew that we were surely damned,
For that true love of mine, sweet Timothy Payne
Was more lovely than I could stand.
I courted him by the river side
Where our parents couldn’t stop our kisses.
It’s tender moments like this
That my weary heart most misses.
Timothy Payne had a fearsome father,
Who demanded the world of my love.
Even in the whirlwind of our passion
Timothy hoped for daddy’s pride of all things above.
I tried my very best to make Timothy see
That through every kind of storm I’d be by his side,
But no matter how close I held him
He wouldn’t ask me to be his bride.
One day in early Spring I asked him myself
And told him I lived to keep him well,
But Timothy said, though he loved me dearly,
His father said I’d poor Timothy under a spell.
I put up a strong battle but the damage had been done
My dream of walking alongside my Tim
Was a stone along a mountainside
All around me began to look dank and dim.
Oh earthly spirits and unnatural creators,
Have pitty on a foolish young girl
For me there was nothing but my Timothy
And without him I hated the world.
We met one night by the riverside,
Where our love first flourished brightly.
I made sure I was Timothy’s last sight.
I killed my love in a manor unsightly.
I lobbed off his head after our last kiss
And tossed it into the flowing river.
I kept his ring finger, betrothed it’s fading flesh.
The rest of my Tim to the earth I delievered.
It didn’t make it to dusk before I’d been caught,
Timothy’s bejeweled finger in my hand.
When they asked me what had possessed me I said
“I killed him cause life stole my man!”
So here I sit in a dank and dark cell
Aching with memories of his kiss,
Cursing that demon that was Timothy’s father,
Who cruelly smothered our chance at bliss.
I know it was wrong but I had no choice.
Timothy and I should have long lived together.
It was a nasty pool of excessive expectations
That cause Timothy’s head to be severed.
By Sarah C Louise
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